Well, it looks like Judah will be delaying his expected birthday of Jan. 3rd. We went to the Doctor today and unfortunatley I've had no change. Judah is still really high and I'm not progressing as hoped. I guess he's displaying his stubborness already...I wonder who he gets that from...hum!?
I go on Monday morning at 7 am for a non-stress test at the hospital. They are basically going to put a monitor on my belly and just see how he's doing in there for about 30 minutes or so. I then go to my Dr. at 9 am for a check up to see how things are. We applied today for an induction. So hopefully either Tues. or Wed. of next week I'll be able to go in to have this baby! If we don't get it for then, we have to wait until the following week...YIKES!! That would make him 2 weeks overdue. Yuck!
Of course this is all contingent upon if I don't go into labor on my own which would be what I prefer of course. It's much healthier to go into labor on your own rather than drug induced, but at this point, I'm okay with either. We just want him here safe, and healthy. Just wanted to give an update. Keep me in your prayers you avid readers. :)
Monday, December 29, 2008
Sunday, December 28, 2008
6 days and counting
Well folks, I'm still here. T minus 6 days and counting. My due date is on Sat. and I can't believe I've made it this far! I really thought that I was going to go early, but I guess Judah is comfy and cozy right where he is. I have a doctor's apt. tomorrow so I look forward to see what they say. I think they may talk to me about an induction so Judah doesn't get too big for me!! I'm so ready. I am absolutely miserable. It is certainly work being this pregnant. It hasn't felt like work until this last month.
Justin has been a real trooper though I must say. I am so moody, emotional and lazy these days. He's helped keep the house nice and tidy and has tried to elevate any discomfort I'm feeling. Precious. It still seem so sereal to us that Judah is in my belly and can come out at any time and be here in our arms to love and cherish. Even though I've felt him move for several months now, it's such an amazing miracle to me that this process is about to end and a whole new journey is going to begin. I have had dreams about him and can't wait to meet him and have him safely in our arms.
We've been walking everyday to hopefully get this process to progress a little faster. I'll let you know what the dr. says tomorrow and hopefully it will be good news. I keep hearing these stories from people about how they were 2 weeks overdue. I can't imagine!!! I l pray with the advances of modern medicine that will NOT be the case for me!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Neglected...
So, it's been a while since I posted. So sorry to those of you who read my blog. I guess I should start off by letting you know that I'm still preggo. Yes, I'm going on 38 weeks and I'm so ready to have this kid!!! I am definately at the miserable part of pregnancy. I am so uncomfortable. I can't sleep. I'm having tons of pressure. I can't breathe and just being at work all day feels like I've just run a marathon. I'm having a lot of Braxton Hicks Contractions so I'm hoping that means that the time is near. Without going into a ton of details, I'm progressing and hopefully at my next Dr. apt (Monday), I'll be even further along and that much closer to delivery. Also, just in case, we have packed our bags for the hospital.
I guess God knew what he was doing when he made pregnancy last for 9 months. I haven't been miserable or ready to go until now!! I guess it's his way of getting us to the point of "I don't care what it takes, how much pain I endure, I want this kid out and I want him out NOW!!" Ha! It's funny when I found out I was due on Jan. 3rd, my first reaction was, "Just so long as he's not born on or close to Christmas, I'll be fine." Now I'm like, "I just want to have him. I don't care when it is. But please, don't be late Judah...my body can't handle it!"
Another strange bit of information is I've had several ladies at my church tell me that they would be more than happy to be in the room with me and Justin at delivery to help coach me in case my family is not here yet. Yikes! Um, while that's extremely generous, I don't think that's something I want to share with someone I'll have to see at church or on the praise team for the rest of my life knowing that they've seen me at my worst emotionally, and not my best angle if you know what I
mean!
I guess God knew what he was doing when he made pregnancy last for 9 months. I haven't been miserable or ready to go until now!! I guess it's his way of getting us to the point of "I don't care what it takes, how much pain I endure, I want this kid out and I want him out NOW!!" Ha! It's funny when I found out I was due on Jan. 3rd, my first reaction was, "Just so long as he's not born on or close to Christmas, I'll be fine." Now I'm like, "I just want to have him. I don't care when it is. But please, don't be late Judah...my body can't handle it!"
Another strange bit of information is I've had several ladies at my church tell me that they would be more than happy to be in the room with me and Justin at delivery to help coach me in case my family is not here yet. Yikes! Um, while that's extremely generous, I don't think that's something I want to share with someone I'll have to see at church or on the praise team for the rest of my life knowing that they've seen me at my worst emotionally, and not my best angle if you know what I
mean!
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
PG-13
DISCLAIMER: For those of you who don't like skin, you may not want to look much further. I debated about posting these, but decided that some of you may want to see some of the pictures we had done. I am 35 weeks in these pics. Enjoy or just don't look...your choice. Much love.
Coveted Manila Envelope...
Well, Thanksgiving is over and boy was it a whirlwind. It was so nice to have my family in town and to spend some quality time hanging out and eating. We had nice weather here in FL...by nice I mean it didn't get above 80, which is considered winter here. (Sad, I know!) I will post pictures later.
I had a Dr.'s apt. today...It was just to check and see if Judah is head down. The ultrasound revealed what I already knew. He is head down and ready to go! Thank goodness. (He was breech last month) We didn't really get to look at him very long. The only thing the Dr. wanted to see was his head, and that it was down. I was sad about that. The doctor informed me that he is off on the weekend of my due date, so he wouldn't mind inducing me so he can deliver me before he's off. For some reason, I don't think I'll make it 'till then. I guess time will tell, but boy he is kicking and squirming around like he wants out of there. I think I had some contractions on Sunday night. My stomach was so tight that it brought me to tears. On a brighter note, I only gained 1/2 a pound this time...even after all that eating...I was shocked!!
I also got what most moms consider the coveted manila envelope from the Dr. This envelope holds all my medical records since I found out we were pregnant. I was informed to make several copies, keep one in my car, one in Justin's and one on me at all times. This is to insure that I have the correct paperwork in case I go into labor....YIKES. This scares me a bit that it really could be ANY time. Wow...say a prayer for my anxiety if you think about it.
I had a Dr.'s apt. today...It was just to check and see if Judah is head down. The ultrasound revealed what I already knew. He is head down and ready to go! Thank goodness. (He was breech last month) We didn't really get to look at him very long. The only thing the Dr. wanted to see was his head, and that it was down. I was sad about that. The doctor informed me that he is off on the weekend of my due date, so he wouldn't mind inducing me so he can deliver me before he's off. For some reason, I don't think I'll make it 'till then. I guess time will tell, but boy he is kicking and squirming around like he wants out of there. I think I had some contractions on Sunday night. My stomach was so tight that it brought me to tears. On a brighter note, I only gained 1/2 a pound this time...even after all that eating...I was shocked!!
I also got what most moms consider the coveted manila envelope from the Dr. This envelope holds all my medical records since I found out we were pregnant. I was informed to make several copies, keep one in my car, one in Justin's and one on me at all times. This is to insure that I have the correct paperwork in case I go into labor....YIKES. This scares me a bit that it really could be ANY time. Wow...say a prayer for my anxiety if you think about it.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Vent Session
Okay, I just have to get a few things off my chest...
Disclaimer: I have had an extremely smooth pregnancy and this is not a complaint about being pregnant because I've loved it, just wanted to give everyone out there some tips, pointers and what-not-to-dos. Much love!
If you know someone who's pregnant here is a list of things NOT to say to them...
1) "Wow, your about to pop anyday now, huh?" Not the best thing to do since you may not know excatly how long she has left and the fact that you think she looks like she's going to explode and they really have 6 more weeks can be a bit disheartening.
2)"Look at you, you're SO BIG!" I mean really, do you think that she already doesn't feel huge? The fact that someone else thinks that you look about as big as you feel doesn't really help the old self esteem.
3) "I think you've got an 8 pounder in there." Seriously? Are you a doctor? Did you give the last sonogram. With the anxiety of labor looming over her poor head, do you think she really wants to hear she may have "an 8 pounder in there"?
These are just a few of the comments I have recieved in the past couple of days. I am so much more aware of what not to say to expectig women now that I am currently in the situation. Not to mention, maybe the reason these comments hurt me is becuase I'm going on about 4 hrs. sleep for the past 2 nights. That's another one..."You look so tired"...Really, becuase I'm so used to carrying around all this extra weight and it's so easy to get comfortable at night, not to mention the countless times I get up to pee. Can you hear the sarcasim in my voice? I'm just a bit uncomfortable at this point. I only have about 6 more weeks to go and the weight is hurting my back, legs and poor feet and ankles...I mean cankles. Wow, I feel so much better getting all of this out.
Disclaimer: I have had an extremely smooth pregnancy and this is not a complaint about being pregnant because I've loved it, just wanted to give everyone out there some tips, pointers and what-not-to-dos. Much love!
If you know someone who's pregnant here is a list of things NOT to say to them...
1) "Wow, your about to pop anyday now, huh?" Not the best thing to do since you may not know excatly how long she has left and the fact that you think she looks like she's going to explode and they really have 6 more weeks can be a bit disheartening.
2)"Look at you, you're SO BIG!" I mean really, do you think that she already doesn't feel huge? The fact that someone else thinks that you look about as big as you feel doesn't really help the old self esteem.
3) "I think you've got an 8 pounder in there." Seriously? Are you a doctor? Did you give the last sonogram. With the anxiety of labor looming over her poor head, do you think she really wants to hear she may have "an 8 pounder in there"?
These are just a few of the comments I have recieved in the past couple of days. I am so much more aware of what not to say to expectig women now that I am currently in the situation. Not to mention, maybe the reason these comments hurt me is becuase I'm going on about 4 hrs. sleep for the past 2 nights. That's another one..."You look so tired"...Really, becuase I'm so used to carrying around all this extra weight and it's so easy to get comfortable at night, not to mention the countless times I get up to pee. Can you hear the sarcasim in my voice? I'm just a bit uncomfortable at this point. I only have about 6 more weeks to go and the weight is hurting my back, legs and poor feet and ankles...I mean cankles. Wow, I feel so much better getting all of this out.
Friday, November 14, 2008
Break out the fine China, Let's EAT!
So, since I will be 35 weeks pregnant at Thanksgiving my doctor informed me I couldn't go to Savannah, my hometown, for Thanksgiving. I have to admit I experienced a wave of emotions...sad, mad, disappointed, depressed. I mean what was I going to do? Cook a big 'ole meal for just me and Justin? I think not. Also, I hadn't been home since May and I love to spend holidays in the house I grew up in with my family. Not only that, my mom and sister were planning on throwing me a shower while we were there. I was so looking forward to seeing old friends and church family.
After a couple of days of trying to figure out what we were going to do, we came to a conclusion...my family is coming to my house for Thanksgiving!! That's right break out the fine China and let's eat! My mom, dad, sister, bro-in-law, neice, and uncle will be here, in Orlando all together. I can hardly contain myself! My bro-in-law, Josh and my Uncle Artie haven't seen our house at all since we bought it. Of course they will not be all staying with us, since our house is on the smaller side, but they will all be here, I will get to use my wedding china that I've never used before, I get to hang out with my neice Madison and show my family the wonders of Orlando (and my growing belly). Now...how do I get Justin to get the Christmas tree and decorations up in time for Thanksgiving?...we'll see.
I hope everyone else is looking forward to the quickly approaching holiday season. Mine is sure to be filled with love, food, fun, and maybe even a new addition to our family!
After a couple of days of trying to figure out what we were going to do, we came to a conclusion...my family is coming to my house for Thanksgiving!! That's right break out the fine China and let's eat! My mom, dad, sister, bro-in-law, neice, and uncle will be here, in Orlando all together. I can hardly contain myself! My bro-in-law, Josh and my Uncle Artie haven't seen our house at all since we bought it. Of course they will not be all staying with us, since our house is on the smaller side, but they will all be here, I will get to use my wedding china that I've never used before, I get to hang out with my neice Madison and show my family the wonders of Orlando (and my growing belly). Now...how do I get Justin to get the Christmas tree and decorations up in time for Thanksgiving?...we'll see.
I hope everyone else is looking forward to the quickly approaching holiday season. Mine is sure to be filled with love, food, fun, and maybe even a new addition to our family!
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Support System...
We had another shower yesterday. This time we went to Tampa at Justin's parents house and were so blessed with seeing old friends and family. We received so many large gifts and and things that we needed. You can see pictures below.
After all of these showers and being blessed with so many things that we need I couldn't help but wonder how people with no support system bring a child into this world. I feel so grateful to have such a wonderfully supportive family-both mine and Justin's. We have such great friends and our church family is just that...an extended family that gives us love and support.
After all of these showers and being blessed with so many things that we need I couldn't help but wonder how people with no support system bring a child into this world. I feel so grateful to have such a wonderfully supportive family-both mine and Justin's. We have such great friends and our church family is just that...an extended family that gives us love and support.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Fun Filled Weekend
So we have had one busy weekend. It started out on Friday when my work gave me a surprise shower!! I can't believe they pulled one over on me!! It was so sweet. A lot of my co worker's spouses were there and Justin even showed up...sneaky. It was so thoughtful and sweet.
Friday night was our Church's Fall Fest. I was Mike Wizowsky and Justin was "Where's Waldo". We normally try to go as a couple, but had creativity issues with me being somewhat large this year. Here's our pic.
Saturday morning was the Church Baby Shower. It was so nice. My friend Erin and her family worked their tales off and made it so special and beautiful. I have a slide show below. We got so many nice things and I'm starting to feel a little better in case this bundle of joy comes early. We actually have diapers and clothes now. Another nice thing was that both my mom and Justin's mom were able to attend. After the shower, Justin surprised me with installing a new closet system so that Judah could actually have a closet instead of sharing one with his dad!! It was a wonderful day. I feel so blessed to have such wonderful friends and family.
Friday night was our Church's Fall Fest. I was Mike Wizowsky and Justin was "Where's Waldo". We normally try to go as a couple, but had creativity issues with me being somewhat large this year. Here's our pic.
Saturday morning was the Church Baby Shower. It was so nice. My friend Erin and her family worked their tales off and made it so special and beautiful. I have a slide show below. We got so many nice things and I'm starting to feel a little better in case this bundle of joy comes early. We actually have diapers and clothes now. Another nice thing was that both my mom and Justin's mom were able to attend. After the shower, Justin surprised me with installing a new closet system so that Judah could actually have a closet instead of sharing one with his dad!! It was a wonderful day. I feel so blessed to have such wonderful friends and family.
Monday, October 27, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
Babies Babies...
So, as mentioned in previous posts, everyone at our church is either pregnant, just had a baby or is trying. Seems there's something in the water. Well yesterday, my friend Lori had her baby Boy. She was scheduled to be induced on Monday but he decided to come on his own...and come he did. She went to the hospital at 12:20 am and had him at 1:20am. That's right NO time for an epidural and he was not a small guy either...8lbs, 4 oz. We went to visit them last night and I just couldn't get over that fact that she did it without drugs!!! This being her second child, she said she actually preferred it. What?! She said she wasn't as sore and didn't feel as groggy. She looked great and the baby was precious...he looked like a little old man! So cute.
As mentioned in this blog http://quesenberrys.blogspot.com/2008/10/i-have-to-do-what.html, by my friend and beautiful pregnant gal pal, Sara, we heard last weekend of all the wonderful yet scary things to look forward to when it comes to delivery. It definitely made me think. But, I kinda have the mindset that it is something that I am going to have to do, God will give me the strength to endure, and Judah's gonna come when he's good and ready and there's not a lot I can do about it. (Seriously the one thing that I haven't stressed over in this pregnancy. PTL) I am praying that the delivery will be as smooth and seamless as this pregnancy. I've also kinda decided to listen, but not digest what everyone else has experienced, because every one's delivery is so different. My only "stress" if you can even call it that is that Judah will come at Christmas. I mean that would be a great gift and everything, but Poor guy, I don't want him to feel gypped every year come his birthday. Oh well, as I said...he's coming when he's ready!! It's closer that I think!
As mentioned in this blog http://quesenberrys.blogspot.com/2008/10/i-have-to-do-what.html, by my friend and beautiful pregnant gal pal, Sara, we heard last weekend of all the wonderful yet scary things to look forward to when it comes to delivery. It definitely made me think. But, I kinda have the mindset that it is something that I am going to have to do, God will give me the strength to endure, and Judah's gonna come when he's good and ready and there's not a lot I can do about it. (Seriously the one thing that I haven't stressed over in this pregnancy. PTL) I am praying that the delivery will be as smooth and seamless as this pregnancy. I've also kinda decided to listen, but not digest what everyone else has experienced, because every one's delivery is so different. My only "stress" if you can even call it that is that Judah will come at Christmas. I mean that would be a great gift and everything, but Poor guy, I don't want him to feel gypped every year come his birthday. Oh well, as I said...he's coming when he's ready!! It's closer that I think!
Friday, October 17, 2008
Let the River flow...
Since being pregnant the hormones have been raging!! I have been so emotional! I seriously cry at the drop of a hat. If you look at me and say cry or even think about it...there she blows, Niagara Falls. It's kinda like when you see someone yawn or you say yawn, you can't help but to yawn. Oh, and once I start, boy is it ever hard to stop! I don't know if it's a combination of being tired and the hormones, but wow am I ever a basket case. Today has been one of those days. I just start crying at my desk and and I tell myself, "suck it up Jules, you're gonna freak everyone out." Not to mention I work in a predominately male environment and they don't know how to deal with a crying woman. And what's sad is when someone asks what's wrong...I seriously don't know. So, today, I simply excused myself to the ladies room and tried to get it all out. Only downfall is when I'm finally finished with the tears, my nose remains red for quite a while...oh well...
Confessions of a pregnant gal, to be continued...
Confessions of a pregnant gal, to be continued...
Monday, October 13, 2008
Growing baby boy!!
Went to the doctor today for our sonogram. I have posted pictures of our growing boy below. He's getting so big. We are right on target according to the doctor. He weighs 2 lbs., 9 oz. and is measuring in the 48% for his age. I only gained 1 lb. this time...thank GOD!!
I can't help but think he looks so cute, but these fuzzy pictures I'm sure don't do him justice. (Proud mom perspective of course!) He definitely has some big feet though...he must get that from his father!
The most amazing thing about this sonogram visit had to be seeing all of his organs in detail. We saw the 4 heart chambers...and it was so amazing.!! We saw his brain, the spinal cord and fluid, his belly, the umbilical cord...it was just incredible. What a miracle I have growing in my belly. I am so amazed at what God can do!
I can't help but think he looks so cute, but these fuzzy pictures I'm sure don't do him justice. (Proud mom perspective of course!) He definitely has some big feet though...he must get that from his father!
The most amazing thing about this sonogram visit had to be seeing all of his organs in detail. We saw the 4 heart chambers...and it was so amazing.!! We saw his brain, the spinal cord and fluid, his belly, the umbilical cord...it was just incredible. What a miracle I have growing in my belly. I am so amazed at what God can do!
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Update...
Well, I guess I've been neglecting my blogging duties. I apologize if there are those out there who check this regularly. Here's what's been going on in my life this past week...
CRAZINESS!!!!
As many of you know I work at an Investment firm as a sales assistant. A job that can be either boring or busy. Well, needless to say with the state of the economy, it's been crazy. The phones have not stopped ringing and my work load has seemed to double. However, I'm not complaining because about a month ago I was watching the clock as the days went by, bored out of my mind. If you know me at all, you know I like to stay busy. I love to be on the go all the time. Well, since being pregnant, being extremely busy has made me EXTREMELY tired. At about 3:00pm everyday, I'm ready to call it quits!!
Due to the high tired factor, I haven't been walking like I should. I cringe to think what the scale will say at the next Dr. visit. However, I HAVE backed off the chocolate and sweets. I'm trying to eat healthy. Judah must be running out of room in my belly, his movement have felt weaker and lower. He must be growing!!
Justin is out of town at the Catalyst conference with the church staff. I wanted to go, but couldn't swing missing work...so I'm all alone this week and it's up to me to make sure the service runs smoothly tonight and to lead worship. Thank goodness he found a speaker...I'm still too scared to speak to our kids for the whole night. I've shared my testimony and lead small groups, but never spoken the whole night to our teens...SCARY!!
More blogs to come...sorry for the time lapse.
CRAZINESS!!!!
As many of you know I work at an Investment firm as a sales assistant. A job that can be either boring or busy. Well, needless to say with the state of the economy, it's been crazy. The phones have not stopped ringing and my work load has seemed to double. However, I'm not complaining because about a month ago I was watching the clock as the days went by, bored out of my mind. If you know me at all, you know I like to stay busy. I love to be on the go all the time. Well, since being pregnant, being extremely busy has made me EXTREMELY tired. At about 3:00pm everyday, I'm ready to call it quits!!
Due to the high tired factor, I haven't been walking like I should. I cringe to think what the scale will say at the next Dr. visit. However, I HAVE backed off the chocolate and sweets. I'm trying to eat healthy. Judah must be running out of room in my belly, his movement have felt weaker and lower. He must be growing!!
Justin is out of town at the Catalyst conference with the church staff. I wanted to go, but couldn't swing missing work...so I'm all alone this week and it's up to me to make sure the service runs smoothly tonight and to lead worship. Thank goodness he found a speaker...I'm still too scared to speak to our kids for the whole night. I've shared my testimony and lead small groups, but never spoken the whole night to our teens...SCARY!!
More blogs to come...sorry for the time lapse.
Friday, September 26, 2008
Great day!
Yesterday was a great day!! Thank God, I really needed it! Here's how it went...
6:45 - woke up with out hitting the snooze button 100 times. I was alert and ready to start the day...this never happens
7:15 - Got dressed and decided to wear a light sweater...since it's now fall
7:30 - To my surprise I stepped out side to go to work and it was Chilly!!! My car said 66 degrees...Oh the joys! I love fall.
Drove to work with my sunroof opened!
8:00 - got to work and there were Krispy Kreme Doughnuts...my favorite! So I indulged myself (yes, they were still warm). My day was extremely busy, which I enjoy. I so much prefer to stay busy then to be bored or feel like I'm watching the clock all day (which happens often). So with a pep in my step I embarrassed the craziness.
12:45 - Picked up Justin for a baby-Dr. apt.
1:00 - Weigh in...I gained 5 more pounds. (the ONLY low part of my day). We got to hear the heartbeat and had a great visit with the doctor. Next visit we get an Ultrasound!
2:00 - Back to work to play catch up from the morning madness. Worked hard until the end of the day.
5:30 - Ran errands with my hubby
7:30 - Went walking with my neighbor for the first time in weeks since it's usually raining every afternoon. It felt amazing!! I want this weather to stay forever. My hair could get used to this zero humidity!
8:15 - Started dinner, made Sheppard's Pie.
9:00 - Settled down to watched some of the wonderful season premiere shows that we TiVoed this week.
10:30 - Fell asleep on the couch.
11:45 - Woke up to Justin telling me one of our youth was at the door and I needed to go to bed. So I did, and slept like a rock.
What a great day!!! Just thought I'd share!
6:45 - woke up with out hitting the snooze button 100 times. I was alert and ready to start the day...this never happens
7:15 - Got dressed and decided to wear a light sweater...since it's now fall
7:30 - To my surprise I stepped out side to go to work and it was Chilly!!! My car said 66 degrees...Oh the joys! I love fall.
Drove to work with my sunroof opened!
8:00 - got to work and there were Krispy Kreme Doughnuts...my favorite! So I indulged myself (yes, they were still warm). My day was extremely busy, which I enjoy. I so much prefer to stay busy then to be bored or feel like I'm watching the clock all day (which happens often). So with a pep in my step I embarrassed the craziness.
12:45 - Picked up Justin for a baby-Dr. apt.
1:00 - Weigh in...I gained 5 more pounds. (the ONLY low part of my day). We got to hear the heartbeat and had a great visit with the doctor. Next visit we get an Ultrasound!
2:00 - Back to work to play catch up from the morning madness. Worked hard until the end of the day.
5:30 - Ran errands with my hubby
7:30 - Went walking with my neighbor for the first time in weeks since it's usually raining every afternoon. It felt amazing!! I want this weather to stay forever. My hair could get used to this zero humidity!
8:15 - Started dinner, made Sheppard's Pie.
9:00 - Settled down to watched some of the wonderful season premiere shows that we TiVoed this week.
10:30 - Fell asleep on the couch.
11:45 - Woke up to Justin telling me one of our youth was at the door and I needed to go to bed. So I did, and slept like a rock.
What a great day!!! Just thought I'd share!
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Chocoholic
Hi, my name is Julie and I'm a Chocoholic.
Yes, it's true. I must have chocolate everyday or I feel as if I'll go into withdrawals. My weapon of choice? Peanut M&M's.
I have concocted in my mind that it's okay because I'm giving Judah the protein he needs-peanuts...I know it's sad. I wonder why I'm having trouble sleeping; the doctor informed me that chocolate has caffeine. News flash for me!
Since being pregnant I have craved, no, needed chocolate to survive everyday. I have always had a sweet tooth, but geez by the end of this 9 months I won't have any teeth left to speak of. Judah's either going to come out loving or loathing chocolate. I know I just can't get enough. I guess I should watch it, Lord knows I don't want a ton of post baby weight to loose!
Confessions of a pregnant gal, to be continued...
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Who's yur Daddy?
The coolest thing happened last night at church. I was listening to Justin speak last night at youth group and Judah was just moving all over the place. The entire time Justin was speaking Judah was moving. It was crazy!! As soon as he was finished, it was like Judah went to sleep.
I have been telling Justin that he needs to talk to my belly more so Judah would recognize his voice when he's born, since he hears mine all day long. Well last night solidified that he knows who his daddy is, that is for sure!! I just thought that was so amazing...had to share.
I have been telling Justin that he needs to talk to my belly more so Judah would recognize his voice when he's born, since he hears mine all day long. Well last night solidified that he knows who his daddy is, that is for sure!! I just thought that was so amazing...had to share.
Monday, September 15, 2008
Control FREAK!
Do you ever just have those moments in life where you feel overwhelmed by life? Well, I've been having that kind of week. I suppose it has something to do with the fact that Justin and I are about to bring a child into this world. (ya think?!)
Scary thought....We're responsible for him.
Financially, emotionally, morally, the list goes on.
I have been an emotional wreck this past week. Not just because of said above, but because of other financial loomings. As mentioned in previous posts I am a known worrier. I do it in spite of Matt. 6:34, which I cling to. I don't know why I constantly struggle with worrying. It's not like God has left me out to dry in the past. He's always provided, always taken care of my every need. Why then do I constantly succumb to the thoughts and trappings of Satan? He knows right where to get me and that makes me angry.
Do you remember that childhood song, "He's still workin' on me"? How relevant is that even still?! I am certainly a work in progress, we all are. I am so thankful that God knows me and knows the desires of my heart, for my son, for my life. I know he will provide for us. I just have to be reminded that it's His timing not mine. Thank God HE'S in control and not me!
Scary thought....We're responsible for him.
Financially, emotionally, morally, the list goes on.
I have been an emotional wreck this past week. Not just because of said above, but because of other financial loomings. As mentioned in previous posts I am a known worrier. I do it in spite of Matt. 6:34, which I cling to. I don't know why I constantly struggle with worrying. It's not like God has left me out to dry in the past. He's always provided, always taken care of my every need. Why then do I constantly succumb to the thoughts and trappings of Satan? He knows right where to get me and that makes me angry.
Do you remember that childhood song, "He's still workin' on me"? How relevant is that even still?! I am certainly a work in progress, we all are. I am so thankful that God knows me and knows the desires of my heart, for my son, for my life. I know he will provide for us. I just have to be reminded that it's His timing not mine. Thank God HE'S in control and not me!
Friday, September 12, 2008
Ike
Hurricane Ike is one it's way to devastating Texas. There is already a ton of flooding and the storm is not even there.
Living on the coast my whole life and now in FL, I have been through my shares of Hurricane Fears. Fortunately we have never been severely hit. When it looked like Ike was coming towards us, panic set in. Now that it's going towards Texas everyone, including myself seems to be relieved.
I feel awful. While we're relieved we're not going to be tortured, someone else is. My prayers are definitely with them and I hope everyone has sense enough to get out of Ike's way!!
I have a tendency to be glued to the TV during natural disasters. They are somewhat fascinating to me. So I'm sure I'll be up all night watching as weather men and women get pelted with wind and rain.
Let's Keep everyone in Ike's Path in our prayers!!
Straight Edge
***Disclaimer: The following post is controversial and additionally -my opinion. With that said, read on...
Okay, so I just want to talk about something that has been on my heart and mind lately...
Justin and I are what some might consider "straight edge". This is a term used for Christians who are extremely conservative. We don't smoke, drink, cuss, etc...This is a lifestyle choice we have chosen and would be this way even if we weren't in ministry. (besides aren't we all called to be ministers?..okay getting off track...) As Christians we are constantly being watched by others.
This is not a judgemental or condeming rant, so don't take this personally if you drink occasionally. I know plenty of people and friends who do. This is just something I wanted to get off of my chest and simply, it's not for us.
Titus 2:11-12
"For the grace of God that brings salvation has appeared to all men. It teaches us to say "No" to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright and godly lives in this present age..."
I think the world is so wrapped up in pleasures...drinking, smoking, etc.... When do we separate ourselves from the world/the unsaved? If the world is drinking, shouldn't we be obstaining? When is it clear for others to look at our lives as examples and say "Oh, they are different."? Yeah being different isn't always easy, but I want to be set apart.
Titus 2:6-7
"Similarly, encourage the young men to be self-controlled. In everything set them an example by doing what is good. In your teaching show integrity, seriousness."
This is Paul's instruction to Titus...and to us. Set an example people, show integrity, get serious about your walk and how your life is being reflected to others. Sorry to be so "preachy", it just bugs me that so many Christians/people in ministry are so flippant with how they conduct their lives. I mean I know we're all human and slip up every once and a while, but lets set a standard here. 'Nuff said.
Okay, so I just want to talk about something that has been on my heart and mind lately...
Justin and I are what some might consider "straight edge". This is a term used for Christians who are extremely conservative. We don't smoke, drink, cuss, etc...This is a lifestyle choice we have chosen and would be this way even if we weren't in ministry. (besides aren't we all called to be ministers?..okay getting off track...) As Christians we are constantly being watched by others.
This is not a judgemental or condeming rant, so don't take this personally if you drink occasionally. I know plenty of people and friends who do. This is just something I wanted to get off of my chest and simply, it's not for us.
Titus 2:11-12
"For the grace of God that brings salvation has appeared to all men. It teaches us to say "No" to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright and godly lives in this present age..."
I think the world is so wrapped up in pleasures...drinking, smoking, etc.... When do we separate ourselves from the world/the unsaved? If the world is drinking, shouldn't we be obstaining? When is it clear for others to look at our lives as examples and say "Oh, they are different."? Yeah being different isn't always easy, but I want to be set apart.
Titus 2:6-7
"Similarly, encourage the young men to be self-controlled. In everything set them an example by doing what is good. In your teaching show integrity, seriousness."
This is Paul's instruction to Titus...and to us. Set an example people, show integrity, get serious about your walk and how your life is being reflected to others. Sorry to be so "preachy", it just bugs me that so many Christians/people in ministry are so flippant with how they conduct their lives. I mean I know we're all human and slip up every once and a while, but lets set a standard here. 'Nuff said.
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Check me out...
I got a real kick out of everyone else's yearbook pics. Here's mine. Check me out!!
2000
1994
1978....I look just like my mom here!!
1966
1960
1954
Friday, September 5, 2008
Random Babyness
I think if someone, so far, asked me what was the worst part of being pregnant (for me there have been close to zero bad items to share), I'd have to say H2O. I have never in my life drank or felt pressured to drink so much Agua!!! My doctor recommends that I drink 1 GALLON a DAY! I mean are we serious? A gallon? I might as well just wear Depends or something because the little bladder I had before I was pregnant is even smaller due to an enlarged uterus constantly pushing on it.
This week I've been having some body image issues. I guess the whole gaining weight thing is taking it's toll on me. I had a breakdown the other day. It's not even like I'm gaining tons, but I'm starting to spread a bit in my booty, back and legs. For someone who used to have an eating disorder it' just hard. I mean I expected to gain weight being pregnant, and I know it's good for the baby...it's just rough...maybe it's the hormones too. Dunno. Anywho...
The best thing about being pregnant so far is...feeling Judah move everyday! He is one active boy! I feel like he's constantly doing something in there. It's such a reassuring feeling to know that he's alright.
The other thing is the attention. I mean who doesn't want it...right? I know that this will all change as soon as my little man gets here b/c the attention will be directly diverted to him (which is fine!) but I will lavish in the questions, comments, rubs on the belly for as long as I can. :)
The belly button is getting really flat.
No stretchmarks yet...PTL!!
We are going to register next week! I'm so excited about it!
I already have 2 baby showers on the calendar. This 9 months is flying by!!!
I talked to my niece Madison on the phone the other day. She's so cute and so talkative. She always asks me about Judah in the belly. She used to think he was in a dark cave (the sonogram pic confused her). "How's baby Judah?" she says. "He's a growin'?" So cute!
I'm really enjoying being preggers. Just thought you'd like to know the random babyness in my head.
This week I've been having some body image issues. I guess the whole gaining weight thing is taking it's toll on me. I had a breakdown the other day. It's not even like I'm gaining tons, but I'm starting to spread a bit in my booty, back and legs. For someone who used to have an eating disorder it' just hard. I mean I expected to gain weight being pregnant, and I know it's good for the baby...it's just rough...maybe it's the hormones too. Dunno. Anywho...
The best thing about being pregnant so far is...feeling Judah move everyday! He is one active boy! I feel like he's constantly doing something in there. It's such a reassuring feeling to know that he's alright.
The other thing is the attention. I mean who doesn't want it...right? I know that this will all change as soon as my little man gets here b/c the attention will be directly diverted to him (which is fine!) but I will lavish in the questions, comments, rubs on the belly for as long as I can. :)
The belly button is getting really flat.
No stretchmarks yet...PTL!!
We are going to register next week! I'm so excited about it!
I already have 2 baby showers on the calendar. This 9 months is flying by!!!
I talked to my niece Madison on the phone the other day. She's so cute and so talkative. She always asks me about Judah in the belly. She used to think he was in a dark cave (the sonogram pic confused her). "How's baby Judah?" she says. "He's a growin'?" So cute!
I'm really enjoying being preggers. Just thought you'd like to know the random babyness in my head.
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Anniversary "trip"
Two weeks ago my parents so graciously gifted us some of their time share points at a local resort. It was so nice and relaxing. Justin and I ate, shopped, went on a helicopter ride, and ate some more. It was wonderful. I think my favorite part of the weekend was the fact that I had Justin without interruptions. His phone didn't ring once!!! (what a rarity) Here are some pictures from our time. Happy 3rd Anniversary Babe!
20 Weeks Prego...1/2 way there!!
Helicopter Ride...it was a bit scary!!
Monday, August 25, 2008
Helmet Head
As I watched the closing ceremonies of the Olympics last night, several things went through my mind...
1 - I'm sad that I won't get to watch these amazing athletes every night.
2 - I'm glad that I won't want to stay up until 2 am watching those amazing athletes.
3 - We have to wait 4 more years for this.
4 - I don't ever remember liking the Olympics as much as I did this year.
5 - That Bird's Nest is so amazing.
But the Main thing that went through my mind was this...
Why are the guys playing the drums on the floor wearing helmets, but the drummers dangerously hanging from the ceiling playing what looks like large pieces of cheese not wearing them?
Random thought and question...so does anyone know the answer? Just curious.
1 - I'm sad that I won't get to watch these amazing athletes every night.
2 - I'm glad that I won't want to stay up until 2 am watching those amazing athletes.
3 - We have to wait 4 more years for this.
4 - I don't ever remember liking the Olympics as much as I did this year.
5 - That Bird's Nest is so amazing.
But the Main thing that went through my mind was this...
Why are the guys playing the drums on the floor wearing helmets, but the drummers dangerously hanging from the ceiling playing what looks like large pieces of cheese not wearing them?
Random thought and question...so does anyone know the answer? Just curious.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
50 Things About ME!
My sister did this on her MySpace and I got a kick out of it. Figured anyone who reads my blog would enjoy also. Here ya go, happy reading.
1. I’m only 4 ft. 11 ½ although I claim 5 ft.
2. I love to get pedicures. I think I’d get one every week if I could afford it; however, I never paint my fingernails.
3. I know how to crochet.
4. I sometimes enjoy doing laundry.
5. I have been singing at church since I was 4 years old. I stood on a box.
6. I will do anything to avoid using a public restroom.
7. I have a tendency to be a germ freak. I’m always afraid of catching someone else’s stuff. At work I’m known as the Clorox Wipe Queen. (Having a kid should be interesting.)
8. Having order in my life is a must. Unorganization drives me nuts.
9. We buy everything on sale. Even our furniture- sometimes we buy it damaged and fix it up.
10. I don’t know how to ride a bike.
11. I would rather do anything than throw up. I can’t stand the feeling and avoid it at all costs. (Good thing I didn’t have morning sickness!!)
12. I look like my mom, have skin like my dad, and have my uncle’s blue eyes.
13. I’m a bit headstrong and like it when other people admit they are wrong.
14. I am extremely uptight. (Not a quality I’m proud of.)
15. My dream job would be either an event planner or a hair stylist.
16. I’m really good with my hands, and extremely clumsy with my feet.
17. I don’t like being alone.
18. I am extremely afraid of thunderstorms. (Not good since I live in the lightening capitol of the world.)
19. I love sweets. (chocolate chip cookies and milk are my weapon of choice)
20. I have only had one cavity and I got it this year. L
21. I’m addicted to coloring my hair. I enjoy the change, but not the expense.
22. I can pretty much justify any purchase I “need” to make.
23. My husband and I have the same initials. (JMJ)
24. I really don’t like to read.
25. I’m addicted to Google.
26. I could eat Chick-fil-A every morning for breakfast and not get tired of it!
27. I love to be on stage. I think I missed my calling to be an actress.
28. I know how to play the handbells.
29. Most of the time I would rather order takeout and eat at home than go out to eat.
30. I am horrible at correspondence.
31. I hate scary movies.
32. I don’t ride roller coasters and get sick in a car.
33. I love surprises but don’t like to wait.
34. I’m extremely affectionate and don’t understand it when others aren’t.
35. One of my biggest pet peeves is when slow people are in the fast lane or when they take 10 years to turn.
36. I love to eat pasta. I think I’m ½ Italian. However I think I could live off of just bread!!
37. If you asked me who my best friend was, I’d say my husband.
38. My sister and I are really close. We’ve come a long way since she used to slap me around. J
39. My favorite time of year is from October to December. I love the weather, holidays from work, good food, family time and gifts!
40. I love that I married into a huge family. Mine is relatively small.
41. I shot a squirrel once.
42. I used to want to be an outdoorsy girl. Let’s just say things have changed.
43. My sister named me when I was born.
44. I could sit at the mall all day and watch people.
45. I love the beach but am supposed to stay out of the sun. I’ve had a few pre-cancerous scares.
46. I’m a bit unadventurous when it comes to trying something new. I’d rather stick to what I know and am comfortable with.
47. I hate being in crowded places. I tend to freak out. Think I’m secretly afraid that I’ll get lost in a sea of tall people.
48. I used to play with toy cars and transformers as a child. (there were Barbie’s also - I wasn’t a total boy)
49. I don’t like roses. To me they are morbid and remind me of funerals.
50. I love old people. When I see them I get a bit teary-eyed. Maybe it’s because I don’t have any grandparents left.
1. I’m only 4 ft. 11 ½ although I claim 5 ft.
2. I love to get pedicures. I think I’d get one every week if I could afford it; however, I never paint my fingernails.
3. I know how to crochet.
4. I sometimes enjoy doing laundry.
5. I have been singing at church since I was 4 years old. I stood on a box.
6. I will do anything to avoid using a public restroom.
7. I have a tendency to be a germ freak. I’m always afraid of catching someone else’s stuff. At work I’m known as the Clorox Wipe Queen. (Having a kid should be interesting.)
8. Having order in my life is a must. Unorganization drives me nuts.
9. We buy everything on sale. Even our furniture- sometimes we buy it damaged and fix it up.
10. I don’t know how to ride a bike.
11. I would rather do anything than throw up. I can’t stand the feeling and avoid it at all costs. (Good thing I didn’t have morning sickness!!)
12. I look like my mom, have skin like my dad, and have my uncle’s blue eyes.
13. I’m a bit headstrong and like it when other people admit they are wrong.
14. I am extremely uptight. (Not a quality I’m proud of.)
15. My dream job would be either an event planner or a hair stylist.
16. I’m really good with my hands, and extremely clumsy with my feet.
17. I don’t like being alone.
18. I am extremely afraid of thunderstorms. (Not good since I live in the lightening capitol of the world.)
19. I love sweets. (chocolate chip cookies and milk are my weapon of choice)
20. I have only had one cavity and I got it this year. L
21. I’m addicted to coloring my hair. I enjoy the change, but not the expense.
22. I can pretty much justify any purchase I “need” to make.
23. My husband and I have the same initials. (JMJ)
24. I really don’t like to read.
25. I’m addicted to Google.
26. I could eat Chick-fil-A every morning for breakfast and not get tired of it!
27. I love to be on stage. I think I missed my calling to be an actress.
28. I know how to play the handbells.
29. Most of the time I would rather order takeout and eat at home than go out to eat.
30. I am horrible at correspondence.
31. I hate scary movies.
32. I don’t ride roller coasters and get sick in a car.
33. I love surprises but don’t like to wait.
34. I’m extremely affectionate and don’t understand it when others aren’t.
35. One of my biggest pet peeves is when slow people are in the fast lane or when they take 10 years to turn.
36. I love to eat pasta. I think I’m ½ Italian. However I think I could live off of just bread!!
37. If you asked me who my best friend was, I’d say my husband.
38. My sister and I are really close. We’ve come a long way since she used to slap me around. J
39. My favorite time of year is from October to December. I love the weather, holidays from work, good food, family time and gifts!
40. I love that I married into a huge family. Mine is relatively small.
41. I shot a squirrel once.
42. I used to want to be an outdoorsy girl. Let’s just say things have changed.
43. My sister named me when I was born.
44. I could sit at the mall all day and watch people.
45. I love the beach but am supposed to stay out of the sun. I’ve had a few pre-cancerous scares.
46. I’m a bit unadventurous when it comes to trying something new. I’d rather stick to what I know and am comfortable with.
47. I hate being in crowded places. I tend to freak out. Think I’m secretly afraid that I’ll get lost in a sea of tall people.
48. I used to play with toy cars and transformers as a child. (there were Barbie’s also - I wasn’t a total boy)
49. I don’t like roses. To me they are morbid and remind me of funerals.
50. I love old people. When I see them I get a bit teary-eyed. Maybe it’s because I don’t have any grandparents left.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Friends...
This past week I got the privilege to see and visit with a friend of mine, Cameron Kist Sedgewick (I hope I spelled that right!). I just have to say it is so refreshing to see old friends and to catch up on lost time.
You know you have a good friend when you can pick up right where you left off! I wish we would have had more time!!!
Cameron and her hubby, Brad were on their vacation in Clearwater and decided to come to O-town and visit Universal Studios. I'm so glad they called us!!! We met them at Bubba Gumps Restaurant on City Walk. It was good but the conversation was better. When our dinner was over we didn't want to leave...so we went back to our house and talked and visited. We were up until 12:30 am and decided it was time to say goodbyes. They had to drive all the way back to Clearwater and I had to work the next morning.
Friends are great. I think I took for granted the quality of friends I had while at Lee. I even think I missed out on some friendships that I should have capitalized on. I guess insecurities held me back to a certain extent. It's even held me back here in Orlando. I have begun to make some really great friends here, but it hasn't been without much hesitation and doubt. Maybe one of these days I'll get over myself and realized the potential of people around me and open up a lot more!
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Wonderfully Made
"I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well."
Psalms 139:14
Lately I have been really thinking on this verse and the wonders of the human body. Maybe it's because mine is growing and changing so much to make room for our son. It's amazing to me how wonderfully God made our bodies. He created us, women, to create new life. We nourish it, we keep it warm, we provide for it while it's being formed and even after birth!
What an awesome responsibility!!
While my body is ever changing as the weeks go by, I can't help but think about all of the intricacies that must be in place for women. What a miracle!
Random thought: Also, have you thought about Elbows? Why do our arms fold in like they do? I'm convinced it's to nestle our babies as close to our bodies as possible or to give big hugs to those you love. Thank God for elbows!!! While elbows certainly aren't the most intricate part of our bodies, there are so many things about the human form that I can't wrap my brain around.
God's amazing...don't cha think?
Psalms 139:14
Lately I have been really thinking on this verse and the wonders of the human body. Maybe it's because mine is growing and changing so much to make room for our son. It's amazing to me how wonderfully God made our bodies. He created us, women, to create new life. We nourish it, we keep it warm, we provide for it while it's being formed and even after birth!
What an awesome responsibility!!
While my body is ever changing as the weeks go by, I can't help but think about all of the intricacies that must be in place for women. What a miracle!
Random thought: Also, have you thought about Elbows? Why do our arms fold in like they do? I'm convinced it's to nestle our babies as close to our bodies as possible or to give big hugs to those you love. Thank God for elbows!!! While elbows certainly aren't the most intricate part of our bodies, there are so many things about the human form that I can't wrap my brain around.
God's amazing...don't cha think?
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Spell Check
This is a random thought but have you ever found yourself completely dependent on spell check? I mean I have it set to automatic on my work e-mail and it does all the correcting for me. I've gotten to the point where I don't even capitalize my "i"'s or put an apostrophe in where needed. In fact, I'm so reliant on my automatic spell check that I expect any program I'm in to automatically make the changes that I'm used to.
Sad right?!
Side note, after I finished typing this entry I hit the spell check button...no errors. Ha! Go figure.
Sad right?!
Side note, after I finished typing this entry I hit the spell check button...no errors. Ha! Go figure.
Monday, July 28, 2008
It's a BOY!!!
That's right we're having a baby boy! I had a feeling all along! He gave us a clear shot so we could see everything. We're so excited. We picked out the name Judah 2 years ago and so that will be his first name. We don't have a middle name yet.
It was so exciting to see him moving around on the large screen. I definitely got a bit weepy. It was just so strange to see all of that movement and not feel it. He looked so big! You could tell he was getting annoyed with us pushing him around...we kept trying to get a profile shot and he'd turn his back. So funny! Here are some pictures of our little one.
His profile and hand.
Spread eagle...the money shot!
Front Face shot. See the cheekbones?
It was so exciting to see him moving around on the large screen. I definitely got a bit weepy. It was just so strange to see all of that movement and not feel it. He looked so big! You could tell he was getting annoyed with us pushing him around...we kept trying to get a profile shot and he'd turn his back. So funny! Here are some pictures of our little one.
His profile and hand.
Spread eagle...the money shot!
Front Face shot. See the cheekbones?
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Infection...
So I was up ALL night last night with a severe pain in my lower left back.
It all started at 9:00 pm Tuesday. At first I thought I just had a pinched nerve and applied a cool compress...no release from the pain. I got maybe 30 minutes sleep; the pain was excruciating. I was getting ready for work and couldn't even stand up straight. I decided to call my nurse neighbor and see what she thought I should do. She immediately told me it was probably serious if it kept me up and I should call my OB doctor.
I called and went in. They took my urine and ran it through a machine. It came back negative for infection. I was like..."What? I know it has to be something, if it's not my kidney's I don't know what it is." Can I just say thank God for women's intuition...the nurse knew something was going on with my kidneys so she ran the test again. This time, it was positive. I met with the doctor and she said it was a good thing I came in because if I had waited any longer they would have sent me to triage to get an i.v.
Another plus is I got to hear the heartbeat again and the baby is fine! I also felt movement last night as I tried to get comfortable on the couch with a heating pad. It felt so weird!!
So I have an infection, on antibiotics, pain killers, heating pad and have doctor's orders to stay home for the remainder of the week. I also have to make sure I don't get a fever or I'll have to go to the hospital. At this point I'm feeling much better than I did last night!!! Praise the Lord. So if you think about it, I'd appreciate your prayers. Much love peeps.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Just in case you were wondering...
I know that the rotating baby to the right may freak some of you out, but I thought I'd let you know a little trick.
If you click on "Open Week ___" you can see what's going on with the baby and me during the week we are in.
Just in case you wanted to know....
If you click on "Open Week ___" you can see what's going on with the baby and me during the week we are in.
Just in case you wanted to know....
Monday, July 21, 2008
I love you more than you know
So yesterday at church the Lord totally took over the second service. Pastor called for those to come to the alter that needed prayer. Needless to say there were a ton of needs. There was a specific lady that was down there that I felt the need to pray for. Lets call her Linda. She and her husband are in the process of adopting a little girl from another country. It's actually a country that is really difficult to deal with in processes like this. Linda came down to the alter with a picture of their little girl, who is just gorgeous! She's about 4 or 5 months old and they are hoping to have her by Christmas. Linda got a call last week from the orphanage that there little girl has been diagnosed with "failure to thrive". This is when babies lack the love and nurture that they need. Yes, we all need, must have LOVE and affection in order to grow and live.
This situation broke my heart! I can't imagine having a child that is rightfully yours that you can't love, hug, kiss whenever you want...especially when it's necessary to survive. My heart is heavy for this family and we are just believing that God is going to open the right doors for this child to come "home".
While praying for this stoic mother, I think I realized how much I already love the child growing in my belly. It's kind of hard to wrap your brain around the fact that your child is growing in your womb. Especially since I haven't felt it move or been sick, sometimes it doesn't seem real. Regardless of the fact that I pray for this child constantly, I think yesterday I truly fell in love with this child.
Some people may say how do you love something you've never even seen?? Faith and Trust. The same way that we put our hope and trust in the living God that we have never seen, I have a love for this child that I have never seen.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
ACTIVITY
We had a Dr.'s appointment this morning and it went well. I have stayed the same weight as 4 weeks ago. (Only 2 lbs. gained to date) Everything else looks good.
We decided to decline what's called a triple screen test. This test is taken around this time and will test for things such as Down's Syndrome, Spinal Bifida and other diseases. So why did we decline? Well, first of all, the test usually comes back with a false/positive reading which can normally send the mother into panic mode and then you'll find out later on it's negative.
So, our question was why the extra stress and worry which is not good for mom or baby! Besides one of the reason's for this test is to see if you want to terminate the pregnancy based on the test results....NEVER!!! Just because one of these things might happen doesn't mean this child doesn't deserve to live! So, we opted out. We're convinced that God will not give us more than we can handle and we have been covering this child in prayer since before it was conceived.
Moving on to better and brighter news. The doctor went to listen for the heartbeat with the Doppler thingy...he said "don't you feel that?" I was like, "what?" He said, "this kid is all over the place." As soon as I find the heartbeat it moves to the other side. It was hilarious! He was all over the place with that doppler trying to get a heartbeat for at least 5 seconds or so. He finally got it and said it sounded good.
So I guess we have an Active kid on our hands. I wonder who it gets that from? (Justin for sure!) I wish I could feel the movements but I can't yet or maybe I think it's gas! Ha. I so enjoy going to the doctor and learning new things and hearing that heartbeat...it's so reassuring.
We decided to decline what's called a triple screen test. This test is taken around this time and will test for things such as Down's Syndrome, Spinal Bifida and other diseases. So why did we decline? Well, first of all, the test usually comes back with a false/positive reading which can normally send the mother into panic mode and then you'll find out later on it's negative.
So, our question was why the extra stress and worry which is not good for mom or baby! Besides one of the reason's for this test is to see if you want to terminate the pregnancy based on the test results....NEVER!!! Just because one of these things might happen doesn't mean this child doesn't deserve to live! So, we opted out. We're convinced that God will not give us more than we can handle and we have been covering this child in prayer since before it was conceived.
Moving on to better and brighter news. The doctor went to listen for the heartbeat with the Doppler thingy...he said "don't you feel that?" I was like, "what?" He said, "this kid is all over the place." As soon as I find the heartbeat it moves to the other side. It was hilarious! He was all over the place with that doppler trying to get a heartbeat for at least 5 seconds or so. He finally got it and said it sounded good.
So I guess we have an Active kid on our hands. I wonder who it gets that from? (Justin for sure!) I wish I could feel the movements but I can't yet or maybe I think it's gas! Ha. I so enjoy going to the doctor and learning new things and hearing that heartbeat...it's so reassuring.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Updates...
It's been a while and we've been ultra busy. Here's an update of what's been going on.
- We had a nice 4th of July with Justin's Family.
- I'm in my 4th month of pregnancy and the belly is starting to show...I know I need to put up pics.
- Justin and I celebrated 3 wonderful years of marriage.
- We took a group of 34 from the youth group to a conference, Branded by Fire, in Pensacola. It was such a blessing to see our kids get blessed...it was extremely exhausting though.
- We find out in 3 weeks what we are having! YAY!
- We're starting to move things out of the room that will be the nursery. I think I'm starting to nest a bit. :)
That's all for now. Hopefully more consistent posts to come in the future!
Blessings.
- We had a nice 4th of July with Justin's Family.
- I'm in my 4th month of pregnancy and the belly is starting to show...I know I need to put up pics.
- Justin and I celebrated 3 wonderful years of marriage.
- We took a group of 34 from the youth group to a conference, Branded by Fire, in Pensacola. It was such a blessing to see our kids get blessed...it was extremely exhausting though.
- We find out in 3 weeks what we are having! YAY!
- We're starting to move things out of the room that will be the nursery. I think I'm starting to nest a bit. :)
That's all for now. Hopefully more consistent posts to come in the future!
Blessings.
Monday, June 30, 2008
Desperate Times call for Desperate measures...
In light of the recent serge in gas prices we decided to invest in a scooter for Justin to go to and from work on. It's a very cute, very red kind of vespa...I'll have to post pictures of it later.
So my only stipulation for Justin riding this thing around town was for him to have a helmet which he does. Until last night I had only that ONE stipulation.
Here's what happened.
Justin had a meeting at the church @ 6:00pm (we don't have Sunday night church, PTL). I decided not to go and just chill after my nap. So, he took the scooter. (Of course he finds any excuse to take this thing places.) It started storming at like 7:00. Not just rain and lightening, there was golfball sized hail. Needless to say, he decided to wait it out...becuase in FL we have terrential downpours for like an hour a day and then it's gorgeous.
Justin calls me at 8:00pm to tell me he's on his way.
I begin making dinner. (yes we eat very late)
8:30...I start to wonder where he is since we only live 15 min (tops) from the church
8:35...I turn off the oven, and venture out to look for him since he's not answering my phone calls
8:45...I'm almost to the church when he calls me...
I start bawling...questioning where he's been of course with the worst possible things going thru my mind.
He decided to stop by a friend's house to pick something up.
My reaction....What??!!! You're riding around on a piece of tin, right after a storm and you don't think to call your pregnant, hormonal, worry wort wife to tell her that you made a pit stop until 45 mins has past?????!!!
Needless to say, I have another rule for the scooter. You call to tell me your coming home and not home in the alotted amount of time, I'm sending out search and rescue.
Justin felt just aweful (and rightly so). I guess we'll get all these kinks figured out before too long. Geez!
So my only stipulation for Justin riding this thing around town was for him to have a helmet which he does. Until last night I had only that ONE stipulation.
Here's what happened.
Justin had a meeting at the church @ 6:00pm (we don't have Sunday night church, PTL). I decided not to go and just chill after my nap. So, he took the scooter. (Of course he finds any excuse to take this thing places.) It started storming at like 7:00. Not just rain and lightening, there was golfball sized hail. Needless to say, he decided to wait it out...becuase in FL we have terrential downpours for like an hour a day and then it's gorgeous.
Justin calls me at 8:00pm to tell me he's on his way.
I begin making dinner. (yes we eat very late)
8:30...I start to wonder where he is since we only live 15 min (tops) from the church
8:35...I turn off the oven, and venture out to look for him since he's not answering my phone calls
8:45...I'm almost to the church when he calls me...
I start bawling...questioning where he's been of course with the worst possible things going thru my mind.
He decided to stop by a friend's house to pick something up.
My reaction....What??!!! You're riding around on a piece of tin, right after a storm and you don't think to call your pregnant, hormonal, worry wort wife to tell her that you made a pit stop until 45 mins has past?????!!!
Needless to say, I have another rule for the scooter. You call to tell me your coming home and not home in the alotted amount of time, I'm sending out search and rescue.
Justin felt just aweful (and rightly so). I guess we'll get all these kinks figured out before too long. Geez!
Friday, June 20, 2008
I.N.A.M
So, Justin has returned from Mexico...PTL. I really missed him while he was gone, but I so enjoyed hearing all about the trip. He got back pretty late on Tuesday night so I was a bit comatose when he was explaining the pictures to me.
I got to hear the majority of the impact the missions trip had on him on Wednesday night at Identity Youth. He had already planned to just share about the trip and not preach...well, God had something else in store. We ended up worshiping for like an hour (there was such a sweet presence of God there), then we prayed for a while, then Justin began to share his heart and tell how the trip impacted him, how the mission field is here too, and how we should seek Him no matter where we are.
When they arrived on the trip, the leader gave everyone a wrist band with I.N.A.M. to remind them of their goal all week.
It's Not About Me.
Something as simple as that was a bit hard to overcome. As Justin began to share how he felt so helpless due to the language barrier between them, he then shared how God kept reminding him that it wasn't about him. God used Justin and the others despite the "barrier" that the felt. They showed God's love and that shines through any obstacle. He came back so renewed and with a different perspective on quite a bit of things.
It's Not About Me.
This is something I find will carry any of us through. We, as a nation are so, TOO, focused on ME and I.
How quickly we forget that WE are not the focus
WE don't have all the answers
WE can't fix everything
WE cannot satisfy.
It's Not About ME.
I think in ministry we are also so focused on the next big program or next big event that WE will come up with, that WE will get the credit for. When will we realize that WE are nothing without GOD.
HE is the one that divinely inspires
HE is the one that creates
HE is the one that answers
HE is the one that satisfies
HE is the focus of all that we do and say
and HE is everything.
It's NOT about me! Thank GOD!
I got to hear the majority of the impact the missions trip had on him on Wednesday night at Identity Youth. He had already planned to just share about the trip and not preach...well, God had something else in store. We ended up worshiping for like an hour (there was such a sweet presence of God there), then we prayed for a while, then Justin began to share his heart and tell how the trip impacted him, how the mission field is here too, and how we should seek Him no matter where we are.
When they arrived on the trip, the leader gave everyone a wrist band with I.N.A.M. to remind them of their goal all week.
It's Not About Me.
Something as simple as that was a bit hard to overcome. As Justin began to share how he felt so helpless due to the language barrier between them, he then shared how God kept reminding him that it wasn't about him. God used Justin and the others despite the "barrier" that the felt. They showed God's love and that shines through any obstacle. He came back so renewed and with a different perspective on quite a bit of things.
It's Not About Me.
This is something I find will carry any of us through. We, as a nation are so, TOO, focused on ME and I.
How quickly we forget that WE are not the focus
WE don't have all the answers
WE can't fix everything
WE cannot satisfy.
It's Not About ME.
I think in ministry we are also so focused on the next big program or next big event that WE will come up with, that WE will get the credit for. When will we realize that WE are nothing without GOD.
HE is the one that divinely inspires
HE is the one that creates
HE is the one that answers
HE is the one that satisfies
HE is the focus of all that we do and say
and HE is everything.
It's NOT about me! Thank GOD!
My heart...
Yesterday we had a doctor's apt. Just routine.
We heard the heartbeat!!!
This was such an overwhelming experience. I cried and cried. It was so amazing to hear the fast beat of my child's heart. Wow! I guess it made it all seem real.
It seems the moment you find out your pregnant you hear horror stories about others' pregnancies or children. You also have a stack of books shoved in your face; it's really a bit overwhelming. It's not that you are reading about the wonders of pregnancy, it's also the "what if's" or "this could happen's."
So, hearing the heartbeat was amazingly reassuring. I truly do have a child, our child, growing and forming in my womb. What a miracle from God. I can't even wrap my brain around it! As for the "what if's"....I know God is in control. I have prayed for healthy children for years and I know God will not give us more than we can handle.
I am so excited to start this new journey.
This child already has MY Heart!
We heard the heartbeat!!!
This was such an overwhelming experience. I cried and cried. It was so amazing to hear the fast beat of my child's heart. Wow! I guess it made it all seem real.
It seems the moment you find out your pregnant you hear horror stories about others' pregnancies or children. You also have a stack of books shoved in your face; it's really a bit overwhelming. It's not that you are reading about the wonders of pregnancy, it's also the "what if's" or "this could happen's."
So, hearing the heartbeat was amazingly reassuring. I truly do have a child, our child, growing and forming in my womb. What a miracle from God. I can't even wrap my brain around it! As for the "what if's"....I know God is in control. I have prayed for healthy children for years and I know God will not give us more than we can handle.
I am so excited to start this new journey.
This child already has MY Heart!
Monday, June 16, 2008
Naptime
I am absolutely exhausted. I have never felt this tired in my entire life. Not even when I've been up to 48 hrs. straight. Well, I guess it's a different kind of tired.
I'm more drained.
All weekend long, I took it easy and laid around (Dr.'s orders since I was having cramping and was evidently dehydrated. I'm supposed to drink a gallon of water a day...are you crazy? Just hook me up to a catheter cause this is ridiculous!)
Anyways, today has been such a rough day. I have felt lifeless with no energy. It's been difficult to function and I just want to sleep. I guess this kid is really taking it out of me! It's not even like I'm not getting a full night's sleep (besides the often trips to the restroom).
Guess I just wanted everyone to know how I was feeling. Oh I almost forgot to mention...HORMONES. I have literally cried all day. I'm not sure if it's because I'm so tired and want to be at home rather than work, or miss Justin or just because. Seriously I think I'm just out of whack this week. Crazy what a child will take out of you.
I have a doctor apt. on Thursday. I'll let you know how it goes. Hopefully we'll get to hear the heartbeat...SO exciting!
I'm more drained.
All weekend long, I took it easy and laid around (Dr.'s orders since I was having cramping and was evidently dehydrated. I'm supposed to drink a gallon of water a day...are you crazy? Just hook me up to a catheter cause this is ridiculous!)
Anyways, today has been such a rough day. I have felt lifeless with no energy. It's been difficult to function and I just want to sleep. I guess this kid is really taking it out of me! It's not even like I'm not getting a full night's sleep (besides the often trips to the restroom).
Guess I just wanted everyone to know how I was feeling. Oh I almost forgot to mention...HORMONES. I have literally cried all day. I'm not sure if it's because I'm so tired and want to be at home rather than work, or miss Justin or just because. Seriously I think I'm just out of whack this week. Crazy what a child will take out of you.
I have a doctor apt. on Thursday. I'll let you know how it goes. Hopefully we'll get to hear the heartbeat...SO exciting!
Friday, June 13, 2008
Who are you talking to?
Home Alone continued...
So here are somethings I've noticed from being home alone
- I talk to myself. Literally caught myself last night. Then I said out loud to myself, "You sure are talking to yourself" as if i didn't already know. Strange.
- I HAVE to take out the trash. This is usually Justin's job, but last night - I had to do it. What a shame.
- I'm not sleeping well. Funny, when we first got married I had the hardest time sleeping next to Justin, now I can't sleep without him. I guess that's what 3 years of marriage will do to you.
- I watch what I want to watch. No 'Pimp your ride" or "Flip your truck" shows for me this week!
- I have a hard time eating well when I'm alone. I don't want to fix dinner for one, seems like a waste of time. Last night I forced myself to make chicken veggie soup (it was really good but time consuming).
- Perpetually checking the doors to make sure I locked them when I know I did, but just want to make sure one more time.
What about you? Do you do weird things when others aren't around?
So here are somethings I've noticed from being home alone
- I talk to myself. Literally caught myself last night. Then I said out loud to myself, "You sure are talking to yourself" as if i didn't already know. Strange.
- I HAVE to take out the trash. This is usually Justin's job, but last night - I had to do it. What a shame.
- I'm not sleeping well. Funny, when we first got married I had the hardest time sleeping next to Justin, now I can't sleep without him. I guess that's what 3 years of marriage will do to you.
- I watch what I want to watch. No 'Pimp your ride" or "Flip your truck" shows for me this week!
- I have a hard time eating well when I'm alone. I don't want to fix dinner for one, seems like a waste of time. Last night I forced myself to make chicken veggie soup (it was really good but time consuming).
- Perpetually checking the doors to make sure I locked them when I know I did, but just want to make sure one more time.
What about you? Do you do weird things when others aren't around?
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Justin in Mexico
Here are a couple of pictures of the orphanage where Justin is ministering in Poza Rica, Mexico.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Home Alone
Well, I'm all alone for 7 whole days. Just me and the fetus.
I have to admit I am not one of those people who likes time to myself or just likes to be alone. No, I love to be around people, especially people I love!
Justin is on his way right now to Poza Rica, Mexico for a missions trip. He is with 5 others from our youth group. I know he is excited. They will be ministering in an orphanage, so I know it will be really special for all of them. I can't wait to hear all of the amazing stories. I'll post pics on here if he sends me any while he's gone.
Back to being alone. What do I plan to do with my time? I've decided...SLEEP! I seem to be extremely exhausted these days and so I'm going to hopefully go to bed early unless of course I'm too afraid of the dark...ALONE!
Why is it that some of us don't like to be alone? I wonder if it's because I'm afraid of myself. humm...no, i don't think that's it. We'll see over the next couple of days if I have any epifanies about myself or my life. I'll letcha know.
I have to admit I am not one of those people who likes time to myself or just likes to be alone. No, I love to be around people, especially people I love!
Justin is on his way right now to Poza Rica, Mexico for a missions trip. He is with 5 others from our youth group. I know he is excited. They will be ministering in an orphanage, so I know it will be really special for all of them. I can't wait to hear all of the amazing stories. I'll post pics on here if he sends me any while he's gone.
Back to being alone. What do I plan to do with my time? I've decided...SLEEP! I seem to be extremely exhausted these days and so I'm going to hopefully go to bed early unless of course I'm too afraid of the dark...ALONE!
Why is it that some of us don't like to be alone? I wonder if it's because I'm afraid of myself. humm...no, i don't think that's it. We'll see over the next couple of days if I have any epifanies about myself or my life. I'll letcha know.
Friday, June 6, 2008
Quarter of a Century
So today is my 25th Birthday. I have been dreading it for sometime now. It just sounds really old to me and to think I'm a quarter of a century...might as well buy me a cane for my birthday!
Then I began to think about my life, I'm happily married, we own a house, we're not it crazy debt, I have a college degree, great friends and a supportive family. Not to mention that this year holds some pretty exciting things. I mean I'll be a mom this year, that's crazy! I will also celebrate 3 years of marriage to my soul mate, and who knows what else.
Debbie Downer is gone. Life is meant to be lived. The fact is we are made to get older and hopefully wiser every year. I wouldn't get to experience the challenges, victories and accomplishments that God has planned if I didn't get older.
So Cheers guys. Happy Birthday to me...Happy life to come!
Then I began to think about my life, I'm happily married, we own a house, we're not it crazy debt, I have a college degree, great friends and a supportive family. Not to mention that this year holds some pretty exciting things. I mean I'll be a mom this year, that's crazy! I will also celebrate 3 years of marriage to my soul mate, and who knows what else.
Debbie Downer is gone. Life is meant to be lived. The fact is we are made to get older and hopefully wiser every year. I wouldn't get to experience the challenges, victories and accomplishments that God has planned if I didn't get older.
So Cheers guys. Happy Birthday to me...Happy life to come!
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Secret's OUT!
Well, for those of you who haven't heard...
Justin and I are PREGNANT! WOOOHOOO! Finally the secret is out. We've known for about a month and have been biting our lips for what seems like way too long!
That's right, we're going to be parents...scary right? Yeah, that's what I keep thinking. But, we are UBER excited!
I will be 10 weeks on Saturday.
For those that are wondering, I'm feeling GREAT! Praise the Lord!
My Due date is Jan. 3, 2009...poor kid, lets hope we make it past Christmas!
And...Yes...we WERE trying. :)
I'll be posting pics soon. Just had to let the world know our secret! YAY!
Justin and I are PREGNANT! WOOOHOOO! Finally the secret is out. We've known for about a month and have been biting our lips for what seems like way too long!
That's right, we're going to be parents...scary right? Yeah, that's what I keep thinking. But, we are UBER excited!
I will be 10 weeks on Saturday.
For those that are wondering, I'm feeling GREAT! Praise the Lord!
My Due date is Jan. 3, 2009...poor kid, lets hope we make it past Christmas!
And...Yes...we WERE trying. :)
I'll be posting pics soon. Just had to let the world know our secret! YAY!
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Memorial Day Highlights
Justin and I went to Savannah for our annual family time. Here are some of the highlights...
- Madison talking up a storm. "Hi guys!" "What's your real name?"
- Justin sleeping until 11 every morning
- Me "sleeping in" until 7:30
- Annual cookout with my parents and friends...yummy!
- Quality Beach time
- Scary beach time when swimming with a large school of sting rays (for real!)
- Looking for shells with Maddy
- Poor Molly (Josh and Joyce's dog) sick again
- Eating seafood
- Sunburn
- Sleeping in old room on double bed - not so easy when you're used to a queen.
- Snow cones from Seaweeds -- Pina colada is my flavor of choice.
- Indian Jones flick double date - it was alright.
- Goodbyes...NEVER fun!
- Madison talking up a storm. "Hi guys!" "What's your real name?"
- Justin sleeping until 11 every morning
- Me "sleeping in" until 7:30
- Annual cookout with my parents and friends...yummy!
- Quality Beach time
- Scary beach time when swimming with a large school of sting rays (for real!)
- Looking for shells with Maddy
- Poor Molly (Josh and Joyce's dog) sick again
- Eating seafood
- Sunburn
- Sleeping in old room on double bed - not so easy when you're used to a queen.
- Snow cones from Seaweeds -- Pina colada is my flavor of choice.
- Indian Jones flick double date - it was alright.
- Goodbyes...NEVER fun!
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Responsiblity
Today marks the one year anniversary of the day we sat at the closing table, and started our lives
as responsible home owners for the next hundred years. :) When I look back over the past year at everything we have done, I must say I'm very proud of what we've accomplished. However I would be remiss if I didn't thank the good Lord for such a wonderful home and helping us with the Mortgage every month!!! I also must thank both sets of our parents who have helped with many a demolition projects and renovations and Justin for dealing with my meltdowns during the messy demo. (Sorry I know I didn't win an award or anything! Ha!) While there is always something to do, I look forward to the years to come, making it more of a home, and have it be a haven for those in need.
Monday, May 19, 2008
Graduates
Sorry, it's been a while. We've been crazy busy with summer approaching!!
I thought I'd take a minute and honor all of the graduates this year.
Congratulations!!!
For us, as youth pastors it's a bit bittersweet. We honored 14 graduates yesterday a church. While I am so VERY proud of all of them, I'm a bit sad because the majority of them are the core group of our youth group. They were the young ones when we first came here. It's that transition time, you know it happens every 4 years and it seems like there is a totally different youth group on Wednesdays. It's just going to be different. I definitely cried yesterday.
To all graduates: Embrace change, explore who you are, enjoy the journey, remember whose you are, and stay strong. Congratulations on achieving this huge milestone in the course of your life.
I thought I'd take a minute and honor all of the graduates this year.
Congratulations!!!
For us, as youth pastors it's a bit bittersweet. We honored 14 graduates yesterday a church. While I am so VERY proud of all of them, I'm a bit sad because the majority of them are the core group of our youth group. They were the young ones when we first came here. It's that transition time, you know it happens every 4 years and it seems like there is a totally different youth group on Wednesdays. It's just going to be different. I definitely cried yesterday.
To all graduates: Embrace change, explore who you are, enjoy the journey, remember whose you are, and stay strong. Congratulations on achieving this huge milestone in the course of your life.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Voluminous Life
So I read a couple of online devotionals everyday and one I read yesterday struck me and truly is my heart's desire. Here it is in a nutshell. I hope it makes you think too! :)
Have you ever heard someone say, "That speaks volumes to me"? What does that really mean? Whatever they heard went beyond their ears to their heart or life. I want to be a Christian that speaks volumes into the lives of those around me. Not through Bible studies or intimate conversations with others, or even through this blog...no, I want to speak volumes through my LIFE. I want to live a visible life to others- transparent, not hypocritical. I must live out loud without hesitancy, without apology and without fear. (That's a tall order!) I must ask myself these series of questions:
Am I insulating myself in a Christian bubble that eliminates me from encountering people who need Jesus?
Am I sharing stories of what Jesus means to me and has done for me with those I encounter?
Am I standing grounded in God's word/promises and praying without ceasing?
Am I the same person behind closed doors that I am around others?
Am I readily admitting my own faults and struggles to others?
Am I quick to forgive others, to not judge them and to try to see them through God's eyes and not my own?
What would my family and friends say about who I really am?
What would God say about who I really am? Who am I when no one else is looking?
....Think on these things. Live a VOLUMINOUS LIFE!!!
Have you ever heard someone say, "That speaks volumes to me"? What does that really mean? Whatever they heard went beyond their ears to their heart or life. I want to be a Christian that speaks volumes into the lives of those around me. Not through Bible studies or intimate conversations with others, or even through this blog...no, I want to speak volumes through my LIFE. I want to live a visible life to others- transparent, not hypocritical. I must live out loud without hesitancy, without apology and without fear. (That's a tall order!) I must ask myself these series of questions:
Am I insulating myself in a Christian bubble that eliminates me from encountering people who need Jesus?
Am I sharing stories of what Jesus means to me and has done for me with those I encounter?
Am I standing grounded in God's word/promises and praying without ceasing?
Am I the same person behind closed doors that I am around others?
Am I readily admitting my own faults and struggles to others?
Am I quick to forgive others, to not judge them and to try to see them through God's eyes and not my own?
What would my family and friends say about who I really am?
What would God say about who I really am? Who am I when no one else is looking?
....Think on these things. Live a VOLUMINOUS LIFE!!!
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Just call me (Aunt) Sissy...
Here's little Maddie, my niece. Isn't she precious? Well she has reached a milestone...piggie-tails!! Hilarious huh? She's so cute, she calls me sissy. Madison Day is going on 3 and has LOADS of personality...and boy does she talk!!! (I wonder who she gets that from?) :)
Monday, April 28, 2008
Home Sweet Home...
Here's our living room...and dining room. We bought our house a year ago and have been fixing it up ever since. It was built in 1960 so needless to say there was some updating to do. See those floors...that's right, we laid them with our bare hands. I must say there is a sense of ownership and pride when you do all the work yourself. More pictures to come!
Hot Wheels...
So, this is my new car...well new to me! A 2003 Acura MDX. For those of you that don't know I was T-boned in Dec. and my car was totaled hence this lovely ride! This is definitely the nicest car I have ever had! It's fully loaded with leather interior and a third row (especially great since we lug around teens all over creation!) We are truly blessed with this dependable, luxurious mode of transportation. Although we have never had a car payment before and it's sometimes a stretch, He provides every month!
Thanksgiving...
Philippians 4:6 "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God."
Lately I have been clinging to this verse. Alot of us have heard it before but THANKSGIVING jumped out at me not to long ago. I sometimes tend to be a negative person and I also tend to be a worry-wort with a side of anxiousness. (traits I am not proud of by the way!)
Anyways, I try to pray in praise often because I think it changes your mindset. So if you don't normally do this I encourage you to try. It will transform you. So basically as the verse says above paraphrased...
Don't worry about a thing, but in all you do, with thanks that it will come to fruition, pray/submit your requests to God.
I also cling to these promises daily...
God WILL supply all of my needs, He will NOT give me more than I can handle, God IS in control.
Lately I have been clinging to this verse. Alot of us have heard it before but THANKSGIVING jumped out at me not to long ago. I sometimes tend to be a negative person and I also tend to be a worry-wort with a side of anxiousness. (traits I am not proud of by the way!)
Anyways, I try to pray in praise often because I think it changes your mindset. So if you don't normally do this I encourage you to try. It will transform you. So basically as the verse says above paraphrased...
Don't worry about a thing, but in all you do, with thanks that it will come to fruition, pray/submit your requests to God.
I also cling to these promises daily...
God WILL supply all of my needs, He will NOT give me more than I can handle, God IS in control.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Thick Skin...
Why is it when you tell people you're in the ministy they say..."oh bless your heart I know you have to grow some pretty thick skin to do what you do"?
Doesn't this work agaist everything we are trying to do? I mean, yes I have gotten my feelings hurt PLENTY of times, but that will happen anywhere. If I had thick skin wouldn't that mean that I am defeating the purpose of ministry and ministering? I hope and pray that I never get so thickheaded or skinned that I loose my compassion for those that are hurting and in need. I hope, in fact, that my skin is as thin as it can be so that I can relate, understand, and remain open to the things GOD has in store for me.
Doesn't this work agaist everything we are trying to do? I mean, yes I have gotten my feelings hurt PLENTY of times, but that will happen anywhere. If I had thick skin wouldn't that mean that I am defeating the purpose of ministry and ministering? I hope and pray that I never get so thickheaded or skinned that I loose my compassion for those that are hurting and in need. I hope, in fact, that my skin is as thin as it can be so that I can relate, understand, and remain open to the things GOD has in store for me.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Babies, Babies, Babies...
This week there were 3 new additions to our church. Prince, Bryan, and Jude. That's right 3 boys within two days of each other!! While visiting these newborns I couldn't help but think about what a miracle children are. The fact that the very child I was holding was in their Mommy's stomach just hours ago. God is SO AMAZING!! It's hard for me to even fathom how intricate our bodies were created. How can anyone not believe in God after seeing a new life brought into this earth?
My prayer is that one day God will bless Justin and I with a healthy child of our own. How much more amazing it must be to feel a new life growing in your own womb. WOW...I'm blown away! I just hope he doesn't weigh as much as baby Bryan did (10 lbs. 13 oz!!!!)
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Technology
Well, I've done it. I have embraced technology. I don't know how good at this I will be, but I have truly enjoyed reading all of my friends thoughts, passions and life stories. Let's give it a whirl!
If you don't know me, my name is Julie Marie (Watson) Johnson. I am married to Justin Michael Johnson, who just happens to be my very best friend! We are youth Pastor's in Orlando, FL and loving it. While it's great to be where the sunshine always beams, I truly miss being close to my family and friends!! Hopefully this blog will help connect us all via the wonderful world of technology.
If you don't know me, my name is Julie Marie (Watson) Johnson. I am married to Justin Michael Johnson, who just happens to be my very best friend! We are youth Pastor's in Orlando, FL and loving it. While it's great to be where the sunshine always beams, I truly miss being close to my family and friends!! Hopefully this blog will help connect us all via the wonderful world of technology.
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